::Chapter 11::

"No!!! You can’t be saying the truth."

"Junsu oppa, please listen to me."

"I do not want to hear another word coming from your mouth."

"I had to let go. We can’t go on like this anymore."

"I refuse to accept your reasons. I know that’s not what you want, right?"

"I can’t control what you want to think. But all I can tell you is that you will always be my one and only. Forever."

"Oppa, promise me that you will live happily. Don’t be sad."

"Goodbye, oppa."

Junsu woke up with a start, breathing heavily. He looked around him. Everyone is still in their own dreamland. Yunho is hugging his "daughter", Bambi. Changmin had his left leg on Jaejoong’s bed and Jaejoong’s right leg is on top of Changmin’s left leg. Micky is sleeping with his back facing Changmin. He still had his MP3 player on. The dim glow of light from the player can still be seen.

He leaned against the wall with his pillow supporting his back. He sat there thinking hard on the dream that he just had. He wanted to know badly whether it is just a dream or it is a fragment of his own memory. Without much effort, the name "Ling" appeared in his mind as if telling him that the girl in his dream is Ling.

He couldn’t remember much of the details of her face. The image is only a vague one. He tried hard to recall the face but to no avail. He really wished that he had not been involved in the accident. If only he had been more careful with his driving. If only he had not answered the call. If only he had asked someone to send him back to the headquarters.

There are too many "if only" running in his mind. He knows that life does not run on "if only". He has to move on with life and tries to get his memory back. He can’t live his life without his past. He decides to try falling asleep again. Surprisingly, sleep comes easily.

"Hey Junsu. You are back early." Micky observed.

"How was your date?" Jaejoong walked out from the kitchen holding a plate of snacks.

"Yeah, come on, hyung. Tell us." Changmin waiting eagerly for Junsu to tell them about his date.

"Junsu, wipe that grin from your face and start telling us how did your date went." Yunho joined in the conversation.

Everyone is looking at him expectantly. Each of them wanted to know how did Junsu’s date went. He is always known as the shy guy. He is just not the type of guy who will ask someone out for a date without failing to turn himself into a walking red tomato.

"It went well. Better than I expected it to be."

"Oh, come on. Do tell more." Micky persuaded.

"Oh no. I am not telling anymore than what I have said."

"Wow. Looks like someone is trying to be mysterious." Jaejoong teased him.

"Oh, stop being so mysterious. Spill it." Yunho said.

"Nope. I am not telling you guys. You will only end up teasing me about it."

"Well, at least tell us how the girl looks like." Changmin said.

"She is one unique girl. No words can describe her."

"In my heart, she will be the most beautiful girl I have ever met."

"She might look ordinary to others but that is not an issue. As long as she is special in my heart that is what that matters."

Jaejoong and Yunho started to throw pillows at him. Waking up from his daydreaming, he threw the pillows back at the two of them. Soon after, a pillow fight started.

*****

"Micky, can I ask you about something?" Junsu approached Micky who is sitting at his table flipping through the magazine.

"Oh! Hi Junsu. What is it that you want to ask?"

"In the past, how many girls have I dated?"

"Why are you suddenly asking about this? Something bothering you?"

"Please do answer me." Junsu begged.

"Okay…okay. Let me think."

He leaned back against his chair, thinking hard for a few seconds.

"As far as I know, you had only dated two girls. One is while you were still in high school and the other one is when you were still a trainee. Why did you ask?"

"Nothing. I just got a little curious about what kind of guy that I used to be."

"Oh, I see." Micky said, turning his attention back to his magazine spread out in front of him.

I hope he will not start asking about Ling again. I don't think I am prepared to answer his inquiries about her, Micky thought to himself.

He knows he promised Eunhyuk to answer Junsu's questions truthfully. He concentrated hard on the picture in the magazine, praying hard that Junsu will return to his work studio. His prayer is answered when out of the corner of his eyes he saw Junsu started to leave the room.

"Thanks, hyung." Junsu walked out of the room, closing the door after him.

Did something happened? Why is it that he asked how many girls he had dated in the past? Did his memory started to come back? Micky thought to himself.